My life of no regret

It's an interesting thing a death of a friend does to one's psychie. It really makes you reflect on your life and everything you are doing, the people, family and friends you share your life with, where you are going and what those people mean to you.

There is a cliche that staes you have to live every second as if it were your last.

I do try my best and try to lead the best life that I know how...be a good parent, person, friend, partner, and human being in general, but do you ever think to yourself and think, "What else could I do?"

Am I really the person I was meant to be, am I doing what I am supposed to be? How do I truly know that I am who I am meant to be...

I am a true believer that everything happens for a reason and life is not just chance but it all has meaning and purpose...

But sometimes feelings, emotions, wants and desires get in the way...if only I didn't feel as much as I do, or could love less than I do sometimes I think life would be so much easier....I would be able to have such a deeper breath...and not worry about everyone that I hold so dear to my heart, sometimes I just want to hold my loved ones in my arms for an eternity..
but then life wouldn't be what it is supposed to be and it would be less interesting...

I just have to live each day and savour each day and each moment and say what I feel without fear, because I want to live a life of no regret...

But most importantly I made myself a promise today. I will tell my children and the people in my life how amazing they are and how much I love them. I will hold nothing back and let my loved ones know...

that they are truly loved. After all what is the harm in telling each other how much you love each other? Absolutely nothing. I am truly blessed that my loved ones in my life feel the same way.

Be good to the people in your life and love as much as you possibly can, you will get so much more out of life.

Drafts

Okay so I have half a dozen entries sitting as drafts.
I can't figure out what is keeping me from posting them.
Mostly I think because they are way too personal and this is the only medium I use to write at the moment.
What does everyone else do with those drafts, do they just sit there like a private journal? Which would be an interesting concept because I haven't kept one since I was a teenager and I still have all my old journals.
Maybe I should start an anonymous blog and just post everything there - a kind of purging of writing?
What do all of you do with those writings that you just don't have the guts to publish?