Hey There!

I haven't posted in a very very very long time.
But as my life is winding down, I will start to post again.

Let me know what you are interested in having me write.

DID IT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OUR WEDDING COUNTDOWN

Ryan and Chana Erin's Wedding Count Down

Update

Well I have had a few changes in my personal life these past months,
and if you want to read my fiance's sweet, beautiful writing about it


♥♥♥THEN CLICK HERE♥♥♥

Youth

King Without A Crown

Irreplacable

I can't get this song out of my head.

Pay it forward

Today was one of those days...where you feel like you escaped death. Well the feeling, not that I actually escaped death. There has been a lot going on in my life the past few months, some unbelievably fantastic, and a few horrific things...

and I just narrowly escaped it. I want to say thank you to everyone for not just the big things but for the little things that my friends, family, aquaitences, other parents at my kid's school, and yes even strangers...

they did things like:

*last winter there was a big snow fall and when I didn't have a snow and ice cleaner for the windows of my car, a father at the school saw me struggling and GAVE me his extra one (which is quite fancy and works great)from his trunk, gave me a smile and said keep it, I still remember that because I was having a really bad day, and that really helped me

*a good friend helped me get the beautiful townhouse that I live in now, and now we are neighbours

*another good friend helped me pack, move, shop and schlep and put together new furniture...and even lent me her cleaning lady for a day :)

*lots of meals at friends and outings---whoo hoo---concerts!!!!!

*and sometimes a good cuddle from the right person ;) makes everything instantly better, thanks to my delicious kids...

Not to mention all the unbelievable things "THE ONE" has done for me, and that list is just WAY too long....

I also believe in pay it forward, and now it is my turn.

Jewish Hope and Courage

I saw this on another site and thought it was very effective.

And now for something FUN! "The Treadmill Dance"

This is a video I saw months ago, but I enjoyed it so much I thought I would post it here.
It is one of the best music videos I have seen!(sorry Matisyahu)

The "F" Word (shhh feminist shhh)

Because women's work is never done and is underpaid or unpaid or boring or repetitious and

we're the first to get fired and what we look like is more important than what we do and

if we get raped it's our fault and if we get beaten we must have provoked it and

if we raise our voices we're nagging bitches and if we enjoy sex we're nymphos and if we don't we're frigid and if we love women it's because we can't get a "real" man and

if we ask our doctor too many questions we're neurotic and/or pushy and

if we expect childcare we're selfish and if we stand up for our rights we're aggressive and 'unfeminine' and if we don't we're typical weak females and

if we want to get married we're out to trap a man and if we don't we're unnatural and

because we still can't get an adequate safe contraceptive but men can walk on the moon and

if we can't cope or don't want a pregnancy we're made to feel guilty about abortion and...

for lots of other reasonswe are part of the women's liberation movement."

-Anonymous

In memory of the Women who Died on Dec.6th, 1989 in the Montreal Masacre and in Honour of all Women who die as a Result of Violence Against Women

Judy Small wrote:

The massacre of 14 women by a deranged young man at the University of Montreal in early December 1989 shocked people all over the world. I believe until we begin to ask questions like this we cannot hope to find the answers:


It was a cold December afternoon, the line stretched round the block
And some of them were weeping and some of them were still in shock
Seven thousand came that day to pay their last respects
To 14 women slaughtered for no reason but their sex

And the cameras and the mikes were there to record the grief and fear
Of the ordinary people who worked and studied here
And a woman in her fifties in a gentle quiet tone
Summed up her sisters' outrage at the murder of their own

She said "I wonder why, as I try to make sense of this
Why is it always men who resort to the gun, the sword and the fist?
Why does gunman sound so familiar while gunwoman doesn't quite ring true?

What is it about men that makes them do the things they do?"

And the man behind her in the line he started getting steamed
He said "It wasn't because he was a man, this guy was crazy, mad, obscene!"

"Yes he was crazy" the woman replied, "but women go crazy too
And I've never heard of a woman shooting 14 men, have you?"

And all the other times came flooding back to me again
A hundred news reports of men killing family, strangers, friends
And yes I can remember one or two where a woman's hand held the gun
But exceptions only prove the rule and the questions remain

And don't you wonder why, as I try to make sense of this
Why is it always men who resort to the gun, the sword and the fist?
Why does gunman sound so familiar while gunwoman doesn't quite ring true?

What is it about men that makes them do the things they do?

And I know there are men of conscience who aren't like that at all
Who would never raise a fist in anger and who reject the macho role
And if you were to ask them about the violence that men do
I know they'd say they hate male violence too

And so we wonder why as we try to make sense of this
Why is it always men who resort to the gun, the sword and the fist?
Why does gunman sound so familiar while gunwoman doesn't quite ring true?

What is it about men that makes them do the things they do?
What is it about men that makes them do the things they do?

Wear A White Ribbon November 25th

Men and women need to unite together to state that violence against women is not tolerated.

AND EVEN MORE OF MY MATISYAHU PICS

And here are even more, I have a ton but I think you get the jist of it by now........:) :D

MY VERY OWN MATISYAHU PICS

Here FINALLY are the pictures I took of Matisyahu at the Oct. Toronto show.

MY MATISYAHU PICS ON ANOTHER SITE

Click here to see 3 out of 100 pictures I personally took with my own camera at the Toronto Matisyahu concert

I am going to try and post the best dozen or so on my blog in the next few days.

hazak hazak

Jerusalem

Here is Matusyahu's newest video, it is AMAZING of course.......
The lyrics are in the green box on the right hand side of my blog - in the side bar.

BEAUTY?

I AM A BLOGGING CELEBRITY (well sort of)

CHECK ME OUT!!! WHOO HOO!! I AM A BLOGGING STAR!!!!!!!!!!!
CLICK HERE TO SEE ME IN ALL MY GLORY

Meeting MATISYAHU

First of all let me just preempt this entry by saying that I would only have this kind of star studded reaction to only a few people in the entire world. I am not a groupie, ultimate fan or celebrity watcher by any means, but for some reason (and everyone has ONE) there are probably 3 people in the world that I would love to meet -and I MET one of them.

Okay so yes it happened, it truly truly happened.
How it did still evades me.
How the heck I only got one picture of us and it is BLURRY still evades me as well :(
But I digress.....
First of all, the concert itself was amazing! I was standing FRONT AND CENTRE. With my Israeli flag. There is no way I could have gotten a better place to see Matis perform. I won't even mention that the concert was called for 7pm and he didn't get onstage till 10:30pm. I don't like waiting in general(who does)but for him I did.
His vocals, lyrics and talent are truly unbelievable and need to be exerienced in person to really appreciate him for who he is and what he does.
I won't be able to tell you what the crowd was like because I wouldn't look back for a second!
My favorite performance was when he did a slower version of 'Indestructable'.
It was such a blast being able to yell out all the lyrics to all his songs and see that he saw me and acknowledged me doing it. A stranger beside me kept saying throughout the concert, are you sure Matisyahu doesn't know you because he keeps looking at you. (I think it is because he thought I was beautiful LOL).
At one point in the song 'Ancient Lullaby' he stood right infront of me and when he got to the lyrics "I am you, you are me" he pointed at himself and then me and then back to himself!
During the song "Jerusalem" I of course waved my Israeli flag.
His mother in law, and sister in law had previously in the week arranged to meet me after the concert and take me backstage. They very kindly took me backstage to meet him.

We arrived backstage and when he came out he said a few words and then instructed the Rabbi to start as WE DAVENED MARIV TOGETHER!!!!! Then, I met him.
He was very gracious and said that he had seen pictures of me and my children. (through a family friend). He also said that he saw me in the concert at the front.
We exchanged a few words which are personal to me and I don't want to blog about, and then he signed my Matisyahu gear and I very humbly left. By then it was 2 am.


I very hesitantly blog about this due to it being a very special moment for me, but really wanted to share it on some level.

By the way Blogger isn't uplaoading my images of the concert so I will try to post them at a later date.

SHORT film every human should watch

This exhibition should enrage every human alive CLICK HERE

SOHO Orthodox Synagogue - THE COOL SHUL

Trendy and Orthodox "A Shul with Ambiance", I love it!

It's never too late to discover your inner Jew!

Cute 30 second film

A MOVIE ABOUT MY HEART

Lately yes I have been just putting videos on my blog. But sometimes I can be moved more by visuals and music then I can by the written word. This film truly moved me, PLEASE WATCH.

Ethiopian Jews Beta Israel 2005

Once again thank you to "Everything about Matisyahu" for showing me this video:

Just because it is erev Shabbat

Click here to see a short cute movie

"The Hour of The Female Warrior"

The war in Lebanon in the last month was the first conflict in which women served in operational combat roles. They fought shoulder to shoulder and back to back with the men, taking a full and equal part in the fight after steps by IDF to integrate women into its fighting forces. And now, at the moment of truth, the women's sacrifices to the defense of the State of Israel is evident.

Click here to read more

Make good Karma

So life is busy and crazy and non stop.
Do not forget to stop and hug and love the ones that mean so much to you.
Do it today, now this instant.
I believe you have one life, one shot to do the best you can.
Do everything, enjoy, love, experience passion, intimacy, celebrate, make your own world your dream world.


Another person I know died, it happened suddenly today, so young and full of life.

Love every moment, and savour every second, because it DOES matter.

Jewish Wassup Commercial

I found just found this and thought I would share.

Music I Am Listening To Besides Matisyahu...

My new old favorite song by Beth Neilson Chapman:

I held you close to me
Once in a distant dream
Far from the shores of my fear
I sailed on this ocean
Where all I imagined could happen
And now you are here
It's so hard to touch what is out of our hands
To know and to trust what the heart understands

Only the ones who believe
Ever see what they dream
Ever dream what comes true
Life gives us magic
And life brings us tragedy
Everyone suffers some loss
Still we have faith in it
Childlike hope
There's a reason that outweighs the cost
And gravity throws all these rules in our way
And sometimes the spirit refuses to play

Oh Love
Turn me around in your arms
And in this dream we share
Let us not miss one kiss




I want to hold you now
And listen to you breathe
It's like the ocean sound
Whispering through the trees
In the hollow of your shoulder
There's a tide pool of my tears
Where the waves came crashing over
And the shoreline disappears

Baby close your eyes
Fly back there with me
Where the phosphor shines
Green flashlights from the sea
Our nets were full of soft shells
Our hearts were free from toil
And we made love on the kitchen table
Till the water reached a boil

We hold it all for a little while, don't we...
Kiss the dice, taste the rain
Like little knives upon our tongue
We can do no wrong when the lights come on
And the music plays
And we take the stage like we own the place
As if time were cheap and the night forever young

So let 'em turn my soul
Seven shades of blue

And with the ocean's roll
I will wave to you
And the birds will sing my laughter
And the whales will steal my song
And I'll be ok forever after
And the world will get along

Get the Facts

CLICK HERE FOR A VIDEO OF THE FACTS

Matisyahu Mini Documentary

Thank you to Blog "Everything About Matisyahu" for showing me this doc and for showing me how to post it on my blog.

  

So this is me at my birthday party two weeks ago.
My first photo ever posted!

A Link to A Simple Explanation for those who don't "Get It"

"We can forgive you for killing our sons. But we will never forgive you for making us kill yours." Golda Meir said to Anwar Saddat just before peace talks.

My life of no regret

It's an interesting thing a death of a friend does to one's psychie. It really makes you reflect on your life and everything you are doing, the people, family and friends you share your life with, where you are going and what those people mean to you.

There is a cliche that staes you have to live every second as if it were your last.

I do try my best and try to lead the best life that I know how...be a good parent, person, friend, partner, and human being in general, but do you ever think to yourself and think, "What else could I do?"

Am I really the person I was meant to be, am I doing what I am supposed to be? How do I truly know that I am who I am meant to be...

I am a true believer that everything happens for a reason and life is not just chance but it all has meaning and purpose...

But sometimes feelings, emotions, wants and desires get in the way...if only I didn't feel as much as I do, or could love less than I do sometimes I think life would be so much easier....I would be able to have such a deeper breath...and not worry about everyone that I hold so dear to my heart, sometimes I just want to hold my loved ones in my arms for an eternity..
but then life wouldn't be what it is supposed to be and it would be less interesting...

I just have to live each day and savour each day and each moment and say what I feel without fear, because I want to live a life of no regret...

But most importantly I made myself a promise today. I will tell my children and the people in my life how amazing they are and how much I love them. I will hold nothing back and let my loved ones know...

that they are truly loved. After all what is the harm in telling each other how much you love each other? Absolutely nothing. I am truly blessed that my loved ones in my life feel the same way.

Be good to the people in your life and love as much as you possibly can, you will get so much more out of life.

Drafts

Okay so I have half a dozen entries sitting as drafts.
I can't figure out what is keeping me from posting them.
Mostly I think because they are way too personal and this is the only medium I use to write at the moment.
What does everyone else do with those drafts, do they just sit there like a private journal? Which would be an interesting concept because I haven't kept one since I was a teenager and I still have all my old journals.
Maybe I should start an anonymous blog and just post everything there - a kind of purging of writing?
What do all of you do with those writings that you just don't have the guts to publish?