Trouble Ahead

So I think I see trouble ahead with my 6 year old daughter.

She already likes to wear shirts that show off her belly button. She asks if the food and drink I give her is low fat!

And- tonight - she asked me what flirting is, who is my boyfriend and when can she have one too.

My friend was over (who on a side note just happens to be male) and commented that I am going to be in it deep with her when she becomes a teenager.

She is thoughtful, kind, and sweet with another side that is head strong, opinionated, stubborn, argumentative and smart as a whip. And to top it all off she is absolutely gorgeous, or so everyone tells me--I am her mother after all.

Fresh

I find myself laughing and being happy most of the time these days. I have made so many changes to my life in the past year -my home, occupation, education, marital status........

I am finally starting to really enjoy my new life, what I am doing and how I am forging a way for myself in this world. The ability to have the awareness and truly know that I am the one who is creating my life. That I have the power to make my life the way I want it to be and to listen to my heart, my soul and my dreams-whatever they may be and may change to be....

I choose everything, from the simple things like what to buy in the grocery store, how to decorate my home, to what friends I have, to the lovers I choose, how to raise my children---it is all up to me and that is powerful notion that I have always known but not LIVED until a year ago.

In a way I feel like the world has reintroduced itself to me. I see everything with the enthusiasm of a child and want to take it all in. I am eager to see every new day, to experience new things, to enjoy my life, appreciate the amazing people who are in my life and be proud of who I am.

Wait and See

I find that I want to tell everything and yet nothing all at the same time. Thoughts like, how much should I reveal, do I use real names, what if someone I know reads this, should I tell the person who introduced me to this world of blogging that I am doing this, should I put a picture up......

Will anyone even care about what I am writing, will my blog suck and no one will visit, or will I spend hours upon hours of time making it a fun place to meander into.......

Should I discuss dating, my love life, my boyfriend, heartbreaks, what it is like to be divorced at such a young age with two children, dare I even bring up topics like passion, sex and love - in that order because that is usually the order it happens in for me.......

Religion, how much should I discuss my spirituality, what it is like to be Jewish, a woman, a convert, and formerly orthodoxISH.......

Should I tell of my friendships, my families, my crisis', my worries, my fears.....

And will this be creative, cathartic or a casualty.... I can only wait and see

Finding my way

This is the first time I have blogged, or really attempted any kind of formal writing at all....if that is what it can be called yet. I was recently introduced to this world and find it quite intriguing. A way to share your life, expression and creativity all in one. I haven't told one single person that I am attempting this. I will just find my own way.